Selections from Walking in Chicago with a Suitcase in My Hand

       Road Service

                                                                        Rita’s mouth dropped
                                                            at the unexpected full-load
                                                   pickup pulling off, squealing,
                                          onto the shoulder beside her little
                                    coupe. Lucky I came by, Harry (the
                                name on his shirt) said, sauntering
                                   out of the well-equipped truck. How
                                      could he not, given his profession, notice
                                        her classic chassis in need? Rita tried to take it
                                              all in, mooning over the sight of his bulging
                                                     black extended cab 4x4. Give me a jump?
                                                              She felt around for the latched slot to
                                                                   pop her hood, which Harry instantly
                                                                     knew where to find, his thick fingers slip-
                                                                 ping under her grill. Oh, she blurted. One
                                                                    hand above her head, the other raising the rod
                                                           that would prop open her hood, Rita stretched,
                                                  leaning over her exposed motor, Harry’s breath
                                     on her neck. Jumper cables he kept in his bed snaked
                              around his arms, he licked his lips. We’ll, he winked,
                     get you going. She smiled, sure he knew what went
             where & how. His engine throbbing, the jagged teeth
        of the cables gently bit the hard nodes of her battery. Now,
     he yelped. Door swung wide, key in the ignition, left
  foot on the ground, her right on the gas, she pumped a bit
wildly, turning over & over until a series of faltering flutters
    reached a high-pitched crescendo & shook her car. How much
         do I owe you? Rita asked, relieved. Not a damn thing, Harry shot back.
               He gunned his engine. Rita, aglow, gushed even as he sped off, long
                         after the waggle of his tailgate shrank to just a smudge in her rear view.


[first appeared in Runes]


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The Highfalutin Old Coot

with the blue guitar lies unstrung
in the patient’s chair, reflecting
that he hears things as they are, not
how they should be, the tired refrain
of his ancient fishwife blowing
her squawky mouth organ aboard
a southbound train, unchanging
            greenery scrolling by
like a Hanna-Barbera cartoon. Thing is,
he no longer has a wife because he chose not to
work at the fucking post office another
fucking second, sorting the sheer unknown
hell of standard business
                        envelopes & plain
brown wrappers. Things as they are,
he spits out, change with every strum &
twang of the transcendental
strings.
                O, poses one
haloed by fluorescent light, what’s wrong
with things you feel
                    you must change them?

The needle stings the graying blues man
as if a bee had bumbled into the flower
of his pried wide jaw. His gum tingles, his tongue
slowly numbs.
            Someday, Dr. Pappadopoulos pipes,
you’ll learn to accept things as they are.
Pausing to tune his drill, he adds,
with a blackbird’s cold stare: Open up.
A swell of instruments fills the old guitarist’s
gaping pit. The dentist dives in,
                                whistling folksy
strains from The Magic Flute.


(first appeared in Blue Mesa Review)

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Making Valentines

Widow Mrs. Carey, no kids outside
her daycare, set her toy
poodle, dyed purple to match

her bouffant, down on purple
linoleum, framed by
purple walls, door

& ceiling. Creasing red
construction paper, she snipped
along the penciled

outline of what resembled a comic
drunk’s bulbous nose, showing how to cut
a heart out to give to someone

special. Lauren shaped a perfect
heart, announcing, red cheeked, her
marriage, date not set, to her

high school sweetheart, fated to meet
scant weeks before her junior prom.
Gerald cut opposite the fold, stupidly

rendering his heart into big tear-
shaped halves portending messy
divorce, alcoholism & suicide. Amy

trimmed the top pointy
as the bottom so, unfolded, it sprouted
horns that bespoke

temptations of illicit, sometimes
dangerous sex, while Danny–who
could figure his square

cut-out meant he’d
disappear onto a milk carton? Left
arm in a cast, broken

for the second
time in three months, I maneuvered safety
scissors with my unnatural

right like hedge clippers, zigzagging
along the sloppy
curved line. Pissed I’d used

the last of the red, Mrs. Carey, poodle
yipping, slapped a blue
sheet in front of me for my ragged

little heart, which, she
warned, no mat-
ter what, I’d just have to live with.


[first appeared in Barbaric Yawp]

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Leda & the Sun


A lemon wedge pushing through ice cubes,
which are actually clouds, the sun beats down
on the woman. As if feeding a flame, she
re-lubes the backs of her thighs, her ass
round as a turtle shell. Knowing the sun
isn't really a fruit, she shakes the sand
from her peroxidic mop. Fingers climb
her back to find the vague string that loosens

with a quick tug her small swimsuit & she
wriggles free. Now the sun's on her however
she turns, her skin tingling with each ray's
penetration. Being so undone, does
she shudder in light of the changing tide
when the indifferent sun goes down on her?


(first appeared in Great Midwestern Quarterly)

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    Erato & Errata

                        I contemplated runes, jabbed
                                                pins into the desecrated
                                                            temple of a voodoo doll. I tried abstinence,
            temperance, neither by choice. How-
ever much I prodded & poked
                                        the remains of my brain, that inky
                            day’s portentous clouds mostly slunk by
                                                   unnoticed as I was
                                                                looking up
                 “precipitately” in my weathered
dictionary. Rain tapped the glass like the stiff
                                keys of a Smith-
                     Corona upon which the story began
                                          to unravel along the common
                                                     thread dangling
       from the hem of a diaphanous blue
gown, revealing the inverted V of the lyrical
                                     legs of
                         the Muse. O Matty-poo!
                                                she cooed, my dumbstruck
                                                             face lifting from the page. You’re so
              cute–invoking your adolescent
notion of me, banging
                                    out your novel
                         stabs at poetry. There’s no
                                                one like you anywhere–
                                                            & clever!

                What burst that gooey pink bubble–
another time perhaps. For all at once–out the window
                                  through which I threw the dead
                      fern, fancy Greek urn & all, as she ran naked
                                              across the lawn with me
                                                        behind her shouting, Fuck
          you if I’m crazy
–a fawn
stumbled from the brambles.
                                    As in a dream,
                        I fell, a wet leaf stuck to the allusive
                                                anvil, my chin tilted toward
                                                            whatever gods remained
             sufficiently sober to supplicate. Where
could I turn, given the stars, given
                                    her glower in every twinkle?


[first appeared in Interpoezia]

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Walking in Chicago with a Suitcase in My Hand

Howlin’ Wolf’s growling, slouched
over a bluesy guitar on the corner,
hammering & stretching strings, bending
 
notes & somehow rhyming the title line with his
succinct explanation–twenty
words, tops–that the woman he still

loves, as evidenced by his pained rendition, told him
to leave because, he laments, he loves drinking, playing
the ponies & laying out all hours. But that’s

not who I am–the guy in faded jeans & brown
bomber jacket, blue shirttail hanging out, glasses
smudged, hair clinging to my face, trying to

remember what the doorman said: Left
on Lake to catch the L? Trudging down Stetson,
I’ve lived inside my head long enough to know

my way around, but not Chicago, rain
falling with the temperature. Here on pleasure
for the weekend, it’s (literally,

figuratively & on every level, both Upper
& Lower Wacker) over–& over
the jagged teeth of discordant architecture

the sad refrain plays as Howlin’s blowing
his harp–a train rumbling ever
faster, then fading–not merely tapping, but stamping

his leather sole against the wet
pavement. In the song, the suitcase
symbolizes burden & as mine grows

heavy, I switch hands. Rain turns
to snow. At the station, I realize how little I know
about the woman, but it scarcely

matters how pretty she is & smart, if she speaks
with a slight accent, whether her sweater’s
stylish with soft contours. To understand

the blues, the singer seems to suggest, you need
only know somewhere in this city lives
someone who’ll–he mutters almost

indecipherably–be happy when I’m gone.


[first appeared in Georgetown Review]






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